I really started on a path to improvement a couple years back, before that I thought that everything else including state of the world was to blame and I was pe

I really started on a path to improvement a couple years back, before that I thought that everything else including state of the world was to blame and I was perfect. But thanks to a dusty place… I was looking for things to improve and have formulated close to a dosen “shoulds” during this time. I cannot say that this was really helpful, because, you know, how could I know what I should? My knowledge got me here. The shoulds arise from the mind, but how accurate are they? No way to know for me! Now I come to conclusion that I “should” only accept myself, and look for meaningful experience and people, everything else will happen. Sometimes I’m boring! Sometimes I’m stupid! Sometimes I’m irresposible! I feel where you are, friend, you will do this!