This also hits home for me, but in my case - I just became aware I have no influence on most of things around me that do not fit into my perfect “working well”

This also hits home for me, but in my case - I just became aware I have no influence on most of things around me that do not fit into my perfect “working well” world. Fix that bug in production that other team struggles with for a year ? Nope, you should be working on something else, they will they care of that (/not). Try to bring up to speed some team members to have full DevOps ? Nope, ppl not interested in that, prefer to do bare minimum. Too many things you have no control of. Gets pretty discouraging very fast.