Did you try simply sitting down and with closed eyes and waiting? From my experience dealing with depression, it's likely connected to unprocessed feelings. St

Did you try simply sitting down and with closed eyes and waiting? From my experience dealing with depression, it's likely connected to unprocessed feelings. Stuff that was too painful to face and therefore was shoved down. The problem is that they don't stop hurting you just because you ignore them. Drugs will mostly mask the problem from my experience, unless you intentionally use them as a bridge to get to a point where you can solve it.