Do you do any drugs? How much alcohol do you drink? How much caffeine? How much exercise do you get? How much sun exposure do you get? How much sleep do you get

Do you do any drugs? How much alcohol do you drink? How much caffeine? How much exercise do you get? How much sun exposure do you get? How much sleep do you get per night? What kind of food are you eating? Do you have a significant other? A loving family? Some kind of support network? These are all things I would ask myself, and try to tweak them in a better direction. This can be really hard though if you're already dealing with excessive procrastination. Maybe it won't work, but at least your body will be healthier for the effort. You're right that antidepressants can be serious business, but you could say that about a lot of drugs. Their use is when the good effects outweigh the bad effects. My advice is to optimize the above things, and also find a trusted doctor and at least give them a braindump and let them practice their expertise upon you. You don't need to take a prescription if you don't want to.