Estrogen, ecstasy, and a lot of internal self-work did it for me. Then I moved to Seattle and the insane lack of sunlight gave me a ton of seasonal depression.

Estrogen, ecstasy, and a lot of internal self-work did it for me. Then I moved to Seattle and the insane lack of sunlight gave me a ton of seasonal depression. A huge sun lamp and megadoses of vitamin D kept it at bay but it still kept creeping up, I felt like I had about 3y left before the suicidal urges won when I moved somewhere sunnier.