I feel I am still mourning the sudden death of my father, over 10 years ago now. I don't really see what is wrong with that, it slowly fades, sure, but it does

I feel I am still mourning the sudden death of my father, over 10 years ago now. I don't really see what is wrong with that, it slowly fades, sure, but it does not go away and I am o.k. with that. There is supposedly a Jewish saying "Someone is only really gone when nobody talks about them anymore". Here, I did it again.