I’ve slowly amped up my lying over time. I hit a peak in my life where I never lied - this caused me to never get a job. Always knew the other side was lying to

I’ve slowly amped up my lying over time. I hit a peak in my life where I never lied - this caused me to never get a job. Always knew the other side was lying too but not exactly how far. Realized it was incredibly deep and terrible lying - accepted lying is a normal part of working in a dysfunctional system and just has to be done. Made my peace with that and moved on. Lying on the Internet? Ah… sometimes I know what you mean. I’ve written some things out but didn’t follow through. The reason? Why bother? I already wrote it. Why do I need people to engage with it? That - to me - is the fundamental issue. Your need of attention and approval. Creative writing can be a fun endeavor but I don’t need anyone to see my lies and get bad information. Think about that a bit more. In the rest of my life - I basically never lie (or even deceive or exclude details) excluding a select few questions that I know aren’t worth explaining answers to. Due to this and my upbringing - people can never tell when I’m lying. I think people think I’m lying more often than I am. I pay the price for not lying by omission. That one - I’d highly recommend doing. I’m about to consider embracing it a bit more because - damn - it’s super annoying since people aren’t used to that level of honesty. Everyone lies so often in many different ways that it’s hard to take someone who is actually honest and real and then not judge them super harshly (because surely they must be excluding the truly horrific shit like everyone else excludes the bad stuff in their life!).