> I was given prescription medication to ease my anxiety and depression, which left me hollow and numb. I was made to answer questions about my life and emotion

> I was given prescription medication to ease my anxiety and depression, which left me hollow and numb. I was made to answer questions about my life and emotions until, I was told, I got them right, framing things in a way the program and therapists felt more accurately told a story about my deviance that I then internalized. My journals were confiscated, their private contents used against me in “therapy sessions.” Ooof, this one hits right home. My abusive parents sent me to an institution twice, except in my province it's the state and not private companies and the transporters do not come during the night. For me it was a "voluntary placement", that is one not ordered by judge and they "convince" you it's better for you to be there (or else). It was hell nonetheless. I was diagnosed with depression, took pills for depression and ADHD (wtf). It made me feel buzzed and like I was a soulless robot. I quickly learned how to hide them in the space below my tonsils. No questions, I was a troublesome kid. But I was the product of my environment, and the "specialists" never asked a fucking single question about life at home. Even shitty kids should not face abuse by their caretakers and government. I am also an adult bedwetter. The "specialists" there often use "manipulation" as a placeholder of their incompetence. So therefore, since I was wetting my bed to "manipulate", they forced me to stay in my room for 6 fucking months. I could only go outside for school and basic needs. I looked into suing them all. Turns out they delete records a few months after you leave. And since the "specialists" working for CPS all know and work together with the same lawyers and judges, no lawyer will want to these cases. The part about medication and your private information being used against you is very real and it really shaped my strong views around privacy and not trusting other people taking decisions for others but I digress. They used to note everything that people hated and liked in a very systematic way to control us, it was so horrible that it has gotten to the point I numbed myself into not hating nor liking anything, or hiding it the best I could; even today I like barely nothing and endure injustice without complaining. Funny story, I wised up to their game and pretended to be antisocial and preferring being alone in my room so I would be "forced" to go outside. It worked. Turns out that the school's psychologist was feeding them information about me from our private sessions. To this day, I'm in my early 30s, I still have dreams and visions of shame, humiliation and sometimes of dark thoughts of getting back at them (I will leave it at that). CPS attracts the worst kind of abusive people. Anyone working in this industry should be viewed with suspicion, disdain and should not be allowed near kids or vulnerable people in general.