You sound like a variation of me. Right after lockdown I started a new job (that I really wanted) and had a toddler and a pregnant wife. I've always been a drin

You sound like a variation of me. Right after lockdown I started a new job (that I really wanted) and had a toddler and a pregnant wife. I've always been a drinker, but my drinking started getting earlier and earlier in the day and I would go until bed. I'm also a marijuana smoker and I reverted back to my previous self of smoking from sun up to sun down. On top of my substance abuse issues, my wife had a rough pregnancy and didn't (feels like still doesn't) understand that if I'm WFH I still have a job and can't just take care of our kid at random times throughout the day, so I was trying to juggle my job and my wife's requests. It didn't get any better after our second was born, because my wife had PPD and now we had two children to deal with. Eventually I had to leave my job because I couldn't deal with it all and was missing deadlines and just not being performant. I'm terrified to go back to work because I know my wife isn't able to treat my job like a job and thinks I just have it easy sitting on a computer all day. The random requests might end, but her resentment for me won't and I'll have to hear about it all night when I get off. Hence, I doubt the substance abuse will stop anytime soon. To top it off, it is so damn difficult knowing that all these single people I work with, or married without children, have absolutely no idea what I'm going through and frankly they don't care. All in all, I agree, the last 2 years have been fucking rough, and I expect the following 2 to be rough as well. PS Your post triggered some venting I needed to express. I am happy with my life and wouldn't change it but it is still so fucking hard sometimes.