I feel a huge gravity in advising you, so take these words lightly. Beware of getting too close to something that you could over-identify with and possibly feel

I feel a huge gravity in advising you, so take these words lightly. Beware of getting too close to something that you could over-identify with and possibly feel frustration on top of your condition. I know a super-smart person with a life changing genetic condition who, after long consideration, decided against doing a PhD in the precise area of their own suffering. Instead, live well and celebrate that you are highly motivated to helping others, and as a computer scientist you can and will make a massive impact on an adjacent area. How about medical imaging? Or diagnostic data science? How about medical robotics or nano-surgery? You might invent something that saves millions of lives. And perhaps by good karma someone else will be looking out for you, and deliver a treatment in 25 years when you need it.