It sounds like you are going through an unimaginably rough time. You need to take care of yourself. Make sure you're eating and sleeping. Make sure to get some

It sounds like you are going through an unimaginably rough time. You need to take care of yourself. Make sure you're eating and sleeping. Make sure to get some sort of activity in.. for energy. You need to seek professional help (Talk to a psychologist), get assistance just making it through this. At the end of the day, you have to figure out what's best for you and yours. Be extremely selfish here. If fighting is what you feel you need to do, follow your heart, find a sharp legal team. I empathize w/ you as a father. I lost my older brother in a similar fashion.