I don't, at least not in the sense that most people think of. Our science does not understand consciousness yet. It may yet prove to be a mistake to think that

I don't, at least not in the sense that most people think of. Our science does not understand consciousness yet. It may yet prove to be a mistake to think that those obliterated by nuclear weapons suffer the same thing that victims of conventional attacks do. -- Read "The Making of the Atomic Bomb" by Richard Rhodes. Do not skip the chapter containing the testimony of Japanese children the survived the attack. If you skip that, you will not learn what you need from it. It is agonizing. Embrace the fact that what the scientists did out of fear led inexorably to that horrific outcome, and that this very same choice between fear and love exists before you. Know that good and evil are teaching tools. The worse things get, the more vital it is to confront your own fear with love.