I think the chance of nuclear war still remains very low (but not zero, it will never be zero as long as nukes exist), and I'm not sure I would want to survive

I think the chance of nuclear war still remains very low (but not zero, it will never be zero as long as nukes exist), and I'm not sure I would want to survive if it happened. So I don't really do much of anything. Plus, I live in Manhattan, so I seriously doubt I would survive a full on MAD scenario, no matter what I did to prepare. Oh yeah, also I'm a type 1 diabetic, so even if I lived far away from any targets, I would be screwed so quickly. All the prepping in the world would do me no good in the event of civilization collapse, and the inability to synthesize and store insulin. (Insulin has a limited shelf life, and also has to be kept cold. So you can't just horde 5 years worth of it or anything like that.) That would be a slow and agonizing death, even if I managed to dodge radiation or starvation.