If the sense door of anatta [1] I walked through almost a decade ago now is any indication it's the former. The pain is still pain and as vivid but because not-

If the sense door of anatta [1] I walked through almost a decade ago now is any indication it's the former. The pain is still pain and as vivid but because not-you there's no clinging therefore no suffering. [1] https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anattā https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anattā