Thanks a lot for these precisions. They bring the details I asked, yet also make me wonder more how I could follow your example. I have so many other questions

Thanks a lot for these precisions. They bring the details I asked, yet also make me wonder more how I could follow your example. I have so many other questions to ask you - like where your interest for Buddhism came from, where were you born and in which culture (and if not Bengal, how come you are interested in Bengali poetry?), how you find your interest and the things worth pursuing with our limited time... Yet I don't want to you bother you too much. > I am striving towards the goal of annihilation of self and I already knew Anatta (no-soul doctrine). I discovered Buddhism in a manga about the life of Buddha (seriously). Like you, I've had a brush with death that was transformative at the time, but I fear I may have lost my path. Since then, I've read a bit, and now I seriously believe I am just a P-zombie, and that consciousness is an illusion. > In a party, you will find me donning a black silk shirt and a black suit with a drink talking with attractive women. You see the limits yet you enjoy life at the maximum. It's very inspiring. I hope you will stick to HN for a while so I can ask you more questions.