It's called anomic suicide. When your whole sense of identity (in this case running marathons) is ripped away from you (whether or not you cheated) you no long

It's called anomic suicide. When your whole sense of identity (in this case running marathons) is ripped away from you (whether or not you cheated) you no longer have a reason to live. Unless you have other things to live for family, work, whatever. Other senses of identity and self. https://www.mdis.edu.sg/blog/four-types-of-suicides https://www.mdis.edu.sg/blog/four-types-of-suicides