You sound like you’re doing enjoyable basic research and that you’re having a bit of a crisis due to being 37 and your wife also having wants and dreams. I get

You sound like you’re doing enjoyable basic research and that you’re having a bit of a crisis due to being 37 and your wife also having wants and dreams. I get it. In the short term get a job and have that baby. Long term “playing jazz” doing basic research sounds like it probably makes you really happy. You can probably find a balance. Going corporate for a few years can work really well financially but don’t sell yourself short, I bet Amazon would love your ass.