The grass is always greener... But no reason to be depressed. You should be proud about the effort you put into getting this position. It's never lost. I can't

The grass is always greener... But no reason to be depressed. You should be proud about the effort you put into getting this position. It's never lost. I can't speak about your particular situation in Russia, but as far as switching to SWE, it should be easy. Some people switch careers in their 40s. As a young graduate, it's very easy to change path.