I have strong OCD that I have to use my own language and own code for all hobby projects, I've met some blockers on implementing my language last year and haven

I have strong OCD that I have to use my own language and own code for all hobby projects, I've met some blockers on implementing my language last year and haven't been coding much in my free time since and moved focus towards other things like music.. This will change when I start recording and have to write my own DAW. It's both a curse and a blessing.