It will definitely come to this eventually, even if OP does find some good teaching resources. Here's what I've heard from artists: there's always a stage wher

It will definitely come to this eventually, even if OP does find some good teaching resources. Here's what I've heard from artists: there's always a stage where you hate they piece, and you just have to push through (goes for writing too). Just push through, remind yourself no one else ever has to see it, and you'll get better with each one.