I went to university, went to grad school, got a PhD in a hard science, saw that science was a dead end career choice and tried to change career. I have ended

I went to university, went to grad school, got a PhD in a hard science, saw that science was a dead end career choice and tried to change career. I have ended up in IT, although I have never written code for my role, or actually done anything technical for my job. It was immediately into the writing documents, architecting infrastructure and systems that I have no fucking clue about. At no point have I gained any experience about using or building anything, it's all bullshit designs and documents that I pull out of my ass so I can keep my job and not end up homeless ( I make under 40k being a non american). I spend my evenings desperately studying things that I HATE so I can at least have some grasp of what the hell they are before I have to design some complex system using different pieces of tech BUT AT NO POINT HAVE I USED THE TECH. I hate it so much and get rejected for any and all job applications to actually do something and solve problems that I apply for. I sometimes wish I had never gone into IT, never gone to uni, and just carried on with the unskilled manual labouring job I had on weekends before uni. At least I would be doing something. I hate IT and I hate tech. If I could do this for a few years and have the fuck you money of a few hundred k in the bank then I would put up with it, but that's not the case.