If you really want to fix it, take the AoA connection course with someone close to you. It will probably be pretty tough, a lot of people drop out, but it sound

If you really want to fix it, take the AoA connection course with someone close to you. It will probably be pretty tough, a lot of people drop out, but it sounds like exactly what you need. It's unreasonably effective and is heavy on the integration, not just theory.