I had inflammation from sciatica that was causing depression. Had no idea. My conciousness was completely changed. I went in to a see a sports medicine team for

I had inflammation from sciatica that was causing depression. Had no idea. My conciousness was completely changed. I went in to a see a sports medicine team for the sciatica (after I fought off a round of depression) and they prescribed an anti-inflammatory which has solved the issue for now (need to remedy the sciatica which is a long term effort). I didn't take the pills for a few days--I was feeling good and forgot to--and it crept back. The depression was so bad I'm literally scared/paranoid for it to ever return. I nearly attacked my family twice before getting the anti-inflammatories. Really fucked up. I have great sympathy for anyone dealing with this, and an understanding of the condition now. Depression is indescribable. I 100% get why people dealing with unrelenting depression kill themselves. I think back to my reaction on hearing of the deaths of Bordain, Cornell, Hartman, Williams and wondering why these famous people who had fulfilling careers, riches, free time, and beautiful families would kill themselves. It was not "unhappiness."