So it feels wrong both ways? The answer will be different for everyone, it depends on "why" it feels wrong. You'll have to introspect to find the answers. In t

So it feels wrong both ways? The answer will be different for everyone, it depends on "why" it feels wrong. You'll have to introspect to find the answers. In the mean time, I can try to psycho analyze your feelings using my own experience. It feels wrong to "watch a movie when I could be learning more" is a manifestation of "this isn't the best use of my time". Like the feeling of a deadline or a big exam coming up. It's hard to do anything but study when you feel like you're behind. Likewise, you also wonder if studying is the best use of your time. The act of studying is fundamentally boring. Its tedious and unrewarding in the short term. Like digging ditches, you'll occasionally find bits of gems. It adds up over time, but takes a lot of time and hard work to reap the rewards. I guess the question is, do you have any source of fulfillment aside from programming? I love coding. I love reading about it outside of work. I love a lot of other things too. I have no problem turning it off because the work isn't going anywhere and the only deadline is the one I make for myself. Further time I spend on coding means time not spent on other important experiences. Just do your best to do the things you enjoy, and realize that's all anyone can do.