> I'm literally crying while writing this post, because it's so exhausting and it never ends. If it helps (?), I also broke down crying reading this, because I

> I'm literally crying while writing this post, because it's so exhausting and it never ends. If it helps (?), I also broke down crying reading this, because I have MS and it is so true to my experience. I've never been able to communicate well how exhausting the constant mental load is, and I imagine it's even worse for people with T1 diabetes since blood glucose can get out of whack a lot more quickly than my immune system can make more holes in my nervous system. You nailed it on the head exactly with the constant balancing. "Okay, so I didn't sleep for crap last night due to symptoms. Do I have some caffeine and spend the rest of the day in pain due to the increased muscle spasticity? Maybe if I have 3 cups of coffee instead of 1 and also take some of my muscle spasticity medication, I'll be able to stay awake but not be in too much pain. Except if I dip into what are supposed to be nighttime pain meds too often, I might run out of Tizanidine. When will my insurance refill? How much will it cost out of pocket when I have a bad pain month?" And then I get stressed out about the MS, and we're supposed to avoid stress, so then I stress about my stress. Fantastic. And all until the day we die.