Honestly, reading this post, I think I can validly extrapolate that you should be asking a therapist about this and not Hacker News. Outside of that, are you af

Honestly, reading this post, I think I can validly extrapolate that you should be asking a therapist about this and not Hacker News. Outside of that, are you afraid of people calling you crazy or are you afraid of people telling you that you're _wrong_?