With all respect, it sounds like you want to be "excellent" but without the work? You can't have one without the other. If you don't want to do the work that's

With all respect, it sounds like you want to be "excellent" but without the work? You can't have one without the other. If you don't want to do the work that's totally fine, but you have to come to agreement with yourself that you stop measuring yourself against that. Really, the secret to tech is caring enough about the people and the results to do a good job. Do that and you will be more than fine. Just be sure you're getting something you want out of your job! Decide what you want exactly, and be willing to sit with the question for a long while without an answer. Do you want to be in tech? Do you want to be deeply technical? Do you want to mix technical work with people management? Once you know what you want, you will find work you want to do to get there, if need be.