In my mind In a future five years from now I'm a hundred and twenty pounds And I never get hung over Because I will be the picture of discipline Never mind

In my mind In a future five years from now I'm a hundred and twenty pounds And I never get hung over Because I will be the picture of discipline Never minding what state I'm in And I will be someone I admire And it's funny how I imagined That I would be that person now But it does not seem to have happened Maybe I've just forgotten how to see That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be [...] And in my mind When I'm old I am beautiful Planting tulips and vegetables Which I will mindfully watch over Not like me now I'm so busy with everything That I don't look at anything But I'm sure I'll look when I am older And it's funny how I imagined That I could be that person now But that's not what I want But that's what I wanted And I'd be giving up somehow How strange to see That I don't wanna be the person that I want to be --- Amanda Palmer, "In My Mind"