> to festivals, bars and clubs and make new friends that way. IMHO those aren't always friends. 1 in 100 maybe, but mostly I found they're people I partied wit

> to festivals, bars and clubs and make new friends that way. IMHO those aren't always friends. 1 in 100 maybe, but mostly I found they're people I partied with and that's it. > How do you deal with getting old and feeling lost? When I turned 42 I found the answer for me, be less of a piece of shit, like in a deeply metaphorical way. For me that meant take on more significant personal responsibility and expect less from the world. For you? Have a kid or kids, no joke. And yes, of course, all the other things that go with that, a partner, a steady job, a nice place to live, etc... They and your partner are built in friends. Or dogs, or a dog. Barring those options maybe a cat. And if none of those appeal then a few plants. Maybe starting with a spider plant, they're pretty robust and were my first foray into the space. And if not a plant than long long walks in nature, everyday. It sounds like you're very introspective, and not to sound dismissive, but you may be spending too much time thinking about yourself. It might be time to take care of another person or creature.