From my experience in exactly this situation (except that I don’t have 500k :) 1. First few months of a newborn are extremely hard. Seek for any help whenever

From my experience in exactly this situation (except that I don’t have 500k :) 1. First few months of a newborn are extremely hard. Seek for any help whenever you can. Delegate as much as possible - from cleaning floors to cooking and buying diapers. Eating well and sleeping as much as you can should be your only priorities (after taking care of the baby). Career can wait for a few months. Just focus on what is important here and now. Take unpaid vacation for a couple months or quit the job. Looks like you can afford it, why then waste your energy on shitty job? On the positive side just know that it will get better. And this experience will make you tougher and stronger. 2. If there are some psychological issues behind that - invest some time in finding a good therapist. Not the one who would just drug you, but one, who understands deep mind-body connection and can properly diagnose if you just physically exhausted or have some anxiety-depression disorder to be addressed.