I get what you're going through. The side hustle and the hope of being successful on your own is a dream, it's part of your identity and now it's impossible. Y

I get what you're going through. The side hustle and the hope of being successful on your own is a dream, it's part of your identity and now it's impossible. You have more choices than you think. 500k is a big run way. You could start your own business and sustain a family for a long time ( as long as you can live a low cost life style ). Alternatively you can put your dream on hold, work your day job and focus on your family. The thing that is choking you is the day job. Don't let yourself blame your family they are important and worth it. If you pick a path some potential options will have to die. This is life. Pick one and run full steam at it. Life will come to another junction and you'll be able to make another choice. Just make sure you back your choice and run with it. Your family can bring you so much joy and being single in your 30s is harder than you'd think. I did not enjoy it. Maybe your day job just sucks and you could switch for another good salary?