You've laid out a number of things: > I feel like I haven't achieved much, both personally and professionally > I am single and haven't had a serious relation

You've laid out a number of things: > I feel like I haven't achieved much, both personally and professionally > I am single and haven't had a serious relationship for many years now. > As time went on, I started feeling less excited about everything, personal or work related > I feel like my time for everything is running out. Nobody is going to be able to untangle all these in a comment, so it wouldn't be fair to try. I'll give one suggestion. Find someone who is qualified and willing to help you untangle all this. Would that be a friend? A relative? No, or it would've happened by now. So who? A good therapist :) If you can get past the judgement a lot of people who've never seen a therapist have, I think you'll find it very helpful. You have the money and if a therapist is not helpful after you've tried a few different ones, then at least you can cross it off your potential solutions list. This isn't an uncommon or unique set of thoughts to have by the way. That cult movie Fight Club is all about it. Its solution was to drop down to being violent apes. A solution I lean towards is moving up to being a conscious human being :) Good luck on your journey.