You may feel lost, but what you are not is old. Ask yourself what you want to do with the other half of your life. You sound professionally successful (you've

You may feel lost, but what you are not is old. Ask yourself what you want to do with the other half of your life. You sound professionally successful (you've done different things, so you have learned, you've got savings), but perhaps left without a purpose. It's good that these questions come up, maybe your brain is alerting you to the fact that something is still missing in your life. I encourage you to initiate that search, there is a lot more out there under the sun beyond technology - the other commenters contain many suggestions about activity, however I would like to focus on people. Your description focuses on yourself (not sure if this is a random effect or systematic, since I don't know you); I wonder if you could benefit from looking around you and helping and caring for others. That would put you in a position to make forming your own family more likely, and make it more likely to remain a stable bond that provides fulfilment and purpose.