Really bad. Feeling sad since my grandmother passed away this weekend. Also, a mix of stress and feeling of being lost due to multiple reasons related to taking

Really bad. Feeling sad since my grandmother passed away this weekend. Also, a mix of stress and feeling of being lost due to multiple reasons related to taking care of my old mother and worrying about my mentally ill brother. I always have to pretend like I’m ok and be there for family so I don’t have anyone to tell about how I really feel. I’m also not able to find motivation to work and advance in my carrier. Adding to all of that is financial issues. I also feel like I’m dependent on adderall and started to abuse it since it helps me focus on work and avoid thinking about the other issues.however, I feel like it’s just making it worse. So yeah..thanks for asking!