Definitely matches my experience. Maybe it relates to the reasons why one drink - I did it because I felt like I was my real self when I was under the influence

Definitely matches my experience. Maybe it relates to the reasons why one drink - I did it because I felt like I was my real self when I was under the influence, and because drinking alcohol was the only conscious activity in my repertoire to ease my anxiety. So what was my experience of giving that up? A bunch of deep shit because I felt disconnected and anxious. Sure, at least I wasn't hungover, but instead of the usual highs and lows, it was a droning monotony of feeling like shit.