There seems to be separate things at stake here, though they are not independent. (1) the amount of and 'pleasantness' of the work involved. (2) the basic socia

There seems to be separate things at stake here, though they are not independent. (1) the amount of and 'pleasantness' of the work involved. (2) the basic social consequences. (3) the 'joneses' social consequences. (4) what originally, and what still, motivates you about it. (5) what the alternatives are. (1) is for you to judge. If you find the amount of work is not rewarding, then you are the source of truth on that. (2) is whether or not you can partake in a social collective of likeminded people doing something similar. If your homestead is isolated, I empathize with this being unfortunate. In my own country, there are rustic collectives (think small villages) that have a great community about being self-sufficient. (3) is a personal thing. Personally, I couldn't care less; part of the appeal is refusing the 'keep up with joneses' threadmill. (4) is the core.. do you still trust your basis for making the choice, and with what you have experienced now, can you find a valid basis to continue on. (5) This "FOMO" bit is split between (2) and (3). The 3-part, you can live without. But if it really is more your (2) - your basic social needs - then of course it's not negotiable. To sum it up, you need 'your fair share' of a social existence, but I question whether you need the joneses-part of it. I have in my basement between 30 and 40 mechanical keyboards, and the last 4 or 5 months, I've dreaded ordering anymore, because how many keyboards does a human really need.. Are you missing the basic social community we all crave, or that they are caught up in their modern-forever-busy-for-no-reason lives..