Sounds to me like you may be depressed. If you are depressed, I recommend against traveling without getting that looked at first. When you are depressed, no mat

Sounds to me like you may be depressed. If you are depressed, I recommend against traveling without getting that looked at first. When you are depressed, no matter where you go, there you are. Travel won't help. There's no shame in this, I had undiagnosed anxiety/depression for 20+ years. I had no idea what it was, or why I felt that way until it was treated and it went away completely. Seek professional help. CBT (talk therapy) is good. Drugs + CBT are even better. If you find an SSRI that works + some CBT, it's life changing stuff right there. Without this, you are fighting with one hand tied behind your back. Fix this first.