You could probably benefit from a far better care team that has an understanding of trauma and which sees medication not as a means of making the problems go aw

You could probably benefit from a far better care team that has an understanding of trauma and which sees medication not as a means of making the problems go away, but as a useful yet optional tool that may help you bring healing (ie allows you to comfortably explore trauma and your trauma responses in therapy) to deeply troubling events that happened in your life (ie typically with lower but clinically meaningful doses, say, of SSRIs). Ketamine with therapy (optionally with an adjunct like a low dose SSRI) also has also appeared to looks be a platform for doing such work, too.