I and I suspect not an insignificant number here would identify with you if that's any consolation . It always feels grass is greener on the side. All the peop

I and I suspect not an insignificant number here would identify with you if that's any consolation . It always feels grass is greener on the side. All the people paying mortgages and changing diapers also think have they made wrong choices and is their current life making them happy . Becoming happy in one's life is an internal journey it has little do with it social life /career /family/wealth we have or don't. Religion /cults / self improvement /therapy (some types) are all businesses that that thrive on selling their flavour solution to the problem. Maybe they even work for some. It is hard to say what works best for anyone. I find learning new tech/writing more code I want to write rather than what someone pays me to do helps. Sometimes even spending weekends cleaning up/refactoring even code from work makes my work week feel way better and less stressed.