Sorry to hear all of this. I would recommend looking at your life the same way you look at your code (presumably you care about the quality of code you write).

Sorry to hear all of this. I would recommend looking at your life the same way you look at your code (presumably you care about the quality of code you write). Try something different and if it does not work then try something else. No one will be handing you what you want on a silver platter and if they did you certainly would not appreciate it ;) Good luck!