I think you are being too hard on yourself and suffering a bit of faraway fields are greener. My post college employment from went from companies of size 10-35-

I think you are being too hard on yourself and suffering a bit of faraway fields are greener. My post college employment from went from companies of size 10-35-3000-50000-60000. I'm the kind of the opposite of you in that I want to go back to a smaller company. If you are going to do it do it now but beware of getting trapped financially with no way to go back to living on a smaller income if you wanted to.