39.5 here: you're young. You might not believe it, but you actually are. Plenty of time to course-correct or even start over. Rather than finding coping mechani

39.5 here: you're young. You might not believe it, but you actually are. Plenty of time to course-correct or even start over. Rather than finding coping mechanisms for the crippling depression of having arrived at an advanced age without accomplishment, go fix what you see as the problem(s) while you're still young enough to benefit maximally from the improvement.