The culture, or what is sometimes called the hegemony, is directly or indirectly controlled by corporations. This website included. They present a false view

The culture, or what is sometimes called the hegemony, is directly or indirectly controlled by corporations. This website included. They present a false view that you are free. You are not, you are a wage slave. Hunter-gatherers deep in the Amazon have a lot of control over their lives but you do not. Work in your context is alienating and for someone else's benefit. The main "benefit" for you is taking away enough of the wealth you're creating to survive until the next day so that you can continue to enrich the heirs who collect the profits and dividends of your labor. My advice is to become more aware of this and then go to work full time. Realize your boss is your enemy. Realize your coworkers for the most part are in the same boat as you and are generally allies. Expecting your company is your family, and that your boss is looking out for you, that your work is not alienating and fulfilling will lead to depression. There are things you can do to make your life more tolerable as time goes by. There are things you can do to join with workers all over the world to end capitalist exploitation, which can at times be very fulfilling. A lot of it is contained in this thread. One common thread is deal with the company like any other unpleasant thing - clock in, don't expect anything back from it but misery and a percentage of the wealth you create. Anything positive you feel or do will be on your own, or with other workers. Company are mechanisms to expropriate surplus labor time from workers to benefit heirs. How can you expect fulfillment giving so much of the time of your life to such an enterprise?