If you're not already getting help from a qualified therapist, please do so ASAP! They can really help you get through this dark period. I have no doubt the lov

If you're not already getting help from a qualified therapist, please do so ASAP! They can really help you get through this dark period. I have no doubt the love you feel for your kids is 100% genuine, but the dynamic you describe tells me that you're also using them as an emotional crutch after the divorce. In the long run this will not be good for either them or you. Another reply suggested that you date again, which would be a good step eventually. But it does not sound like you'd be able to get into a healthy relationship yet. You don't have to commit to a therapist right away. Just look up a few near you, set up an initial appointment with each and treat it like interviews where you're the hiring manager. Go talk to them, and then maybe go back to the one you're most comfortable with. Things will get better for you, but you need a hand to pull you out of the ditch right now. Do it for yourself and your kids. They need you to show them what resilience looks like.