Personal anectode but might help: I also have anxiety and panic attacks triggered. Though when it's over and I can think calmly, I ALWAYS see those panic attac

Personal anectode but might help: I also have anxiety and panic attacks triggered. Though when it's over and I can think calmly, I ALWAYS see those panic attacks are my subconscious' way of telling something wrong with my life/where I'm going etc. and I need to fix things. When everything's on track I never have panic attacks regardless of the amount of substance. In that sense it's actually telling me, in a brutal yet true way, to fix my life, by facing me feelings or thoughts that I've been subconsciously running away from. Might not be the same case with you, surely, but this is my 2 cents.