That's amazing. I'm so glad you survived. > Am I deflecting responsibility and blaming others for my own failures? No. You were forced to make a decision. You

That's amazing. I'm so glad you survived. > Am I deflecting responsibility and blaming others for my own failures? No. You were forced to make a decision. You did the best you could. You did not fail. You survived. You're still here. Fighting. Trying to become the person you were always meant to be. Doubt, rumination, self-examination can all be helpful. Those of us without good role models have to work harder to figure out which way is up. I only encourage you to not dwell too long on the past. Like I've done. There's only such much juice to squeeze from those turnips. After a time, you'll be better served by looking forward.