I've had a similar experience when a very close uncle passed away. I was sad but not as sad as everyone else. It wasn't weird for me because I've always had a d

I've had a similar experience when a very close uncle passed away. I was sad but not as sad as everyone else. It wasn't weird for me because I've always had a delayed emotional response to things. It comes in useful in that we can remain cool and level headed during panic situations, with the inverse being that we come off as aloof and uncaring. For me, the release of anguish came right at the moment when the furnace was ignited and my uncle was cremated. It was a very brief but strong outburst of emotion. It's been over 20 years so I can't say if I felt better or worst after that, or even if we're normal. Just that you're not alone. Also, age doesn't make it easier. I've worked hard over the past few years to learn to smile 'naturally' and attempt to release emotions on the spot. Doing sports that come with emotional highs help. For me it was snowboarding.