Sorry, I don't know how to help with your inner confusion. But I think I can help with the messaging, if you do decide to leave. I think a healthy professional

Sorry, I don't know how to help with your inner confusion. But I think I can help with the messaging, if you do decide to leave. I think a healthy professional workplace will understand that we're all human beings with different desires and needs. And there are ways to communicate your personal feelings without making things awkward for the two of you. For example, what I hear from your post is that you're thinking about where to build the rest of your life and you think your current location isn't right for you. I think that's a perfectly fine reason to give to a superior -- personal, but professional. If he digs in, you can give details based on how comfortable you are with him. Again, there are general reasons you can give -- wanting to live in a city, for example -- that are honest and personal without being awkward.