Joined somewhat recently. Don’t feel like interviewing again so soon and giving back sign on bonus. Part of me feels like I might still be able to get something

Joined somewhat recently. Don’t feel like interviewing again so soon and giving back sign on bonus. Part of me feels like I might still be able to get something out of this experience - as it’s my first larger tech company rather than startups and what not. That said - I feel management people are a whole other level of toxic within SV. Nothing but lies and deception in almost every company I join. It’s very obnoxious when you’re hungry AF. I will leave either late this year or early next year. I will likely need to figure out if I am really going to stay in SV as well. After my last company’s IPO busted (stock lost 75% of value) - I’m feeling super deflated about staying since my hard work basically imploded. I’m in my 30s now and recently single. I know my chances of getting a partner here are infinitesimal. I just don’t know where I’d go - tbh. As it seems culturally, a racially ambiguous software engineer isn’t exactly a hot item in any dating market. I need to start lying about my job - I swear it’s off putting in itself. Another reason to consider a career change - tbh. I can’t stand the stigma anymore. I get too much prejudice immediately. Everyone assumes I must be autistic if I’m a software engineer before I even say a word. It’s a damn annoying profession.