> What I think has most surprised me about livestreaming, as someone who has lived and breathed live performance for most of his life, is how authentically live

> What I think has most surprised me about livestreaming, as someone who has lived and breathed live performance for most of his life, is how authentically live it feels to me as the performer. I feel the presence of the audience watching me through the ether. I feel their gaze, their judgement, and I swear I can feel their joy when I’m particularly in the zone and the music I’m making is really speaking from the heart. It sounds crazy, but the livestream experience has felt even more intimate to me at times than it has to play in a jazz club or a concert hall. I wish I felt like this :(. To the extent to which I do--and maybe that is all he is feeling also, so maybe the real issue is that I just don't feel it is "sufficient"--is a kind of "muscle memory" for what being in front of an audience is like, in that if I close my eyes on stage I am sure I wouldn't immediately panic... but it really does feel alone and isolating for me to only have my own video and see nothing but the occasional chat in response. I know people are out there, but I don't have a feel how they are reacting--again, other than as a prediction of "audiences tend to work like X" as I have experienced them enough to mentally model them--to feel like they are still on the journey with me, which is, if nothing else, a lot of the fun on my side :(.